My episode of Pregnant in Heels aired last night on Bravo and I absolutely loved how it turned out. It tackled my fear of giving birth and specifically needles. I had never had an IV and was terrified of having one during labor. The thought of getting an epidural made me queasy. In the end I surprised myself by being very brave! It was all so worth it too because I got the best baby out of it.
One of the things that made me most happy, last night, while watching the episode was the reaction on Twitter. Most people were not only supportive of my journey, but some said they felt the same way I did. I hadn’t heard about a lot people’s fears about pregnancy before my own. So I think it’s good for other women to see they aren’t alone! The message is that if I can conquer my fears with needles, so can you. It was a real fear for me. The kind that caused panic attacks. No one can blame someone for having a fear. What I learned, though, is that you can face your fears head on, especially when the end result is a beautiful miracle. A Doctor with a great bedside manner helped a lot too!
The episode also tackled breastfeeding. I think breastfeeding is fabulous for other people, I just didn’t think it was for me. In the end I did breastfeed though! It was a struggle, but I did it for Alexia.
A few people were rude about my feelings on breastfeeding, but I can’t worry about them. I was just stating my opinion on breastfeeding, as it related to me. I wasn’t judging other women. As I said above, breastfeeding is a great thing, and I, in no way was trying to say it wasn’t. As a woman, in this country, we are free to have our own opinions on what we do with our OWN bodies. I hate that some women judge others poorly because they don’t breastfeed. I once read that a woman screamed at J Lo (Jennifer Lopez) and told her she wasn’t fit to be a mom because she wasn’t breastfeeding her babies. You don’t know J Lo, you don’t know why she chose not to breastfeed and most importantly it wasn’t your business. I truly hope you don’t judge others based on whether they breastfeed or not. I hope I conveyed some of that during Pregnant in Heels and I will continue to try to convey that in my everyday life. Writer Jeanne Sager actually wrote about the reaction to my breastfeeding feelings on Pregnant in Heels in this blog today. I am glad people like her are also writing to say breastfeeding is about choice and moms shouldn’t be at war over it. I especially love the comments people are leaving after her story. Comments like the one from StephiCramer: “I think instead of judging each other, we should try to support and help one another.”
In closing I thank Rosie and everyone else who helped me on the show. I especially thank my husband for supporting all my decisions during my pregnancy. As you saw on the show he was truly there by my side, every step of the way.
Today Bravo posted a photo album of Alexia on the Pregnant in Heels page. Check it out: http://www.bravotv.com/pregnant-in-heels/season-1/photos/baby-books/baby-alexia
Oh and if you missed the episode it will show several more times over the next week or so.